Unnhhh

Unnhhh is what I say when I put anything in my mouth or even just open it to speak today. I woke up a few days ago with a large piece of my right inner-cheek ripped off, just a 3 centemeter piece of flesh dangling. I am not sure if I bit it in my sleep, or if this is the work of Guri. Anyway, it was fine for about to days, then yesterday I notice that it was not getting any better, rather worse of course due to the hot, steamy, sexiness of the inside of my mouth. Today it is even worse and the pain has spread o the entire right side of my mouth, and even my tounge hurts. I have some ointment to put on it, but the directons just say to "apply" several times a day. It is basically a tube of vasiline like gell. Try to "apply" vasaline to a wet surface...
Anyway, that almost used up my health budget for this year. I already bought eye drops for about 900 yen a few months ago when I had a hideous eye desease. Add today's 600 yen for the gell, and I can only afford 1500 yen more for health care this year. I hope nothing bad happens to me.

I have been watching The Last Temptation of ChristGoogle in nightly installments for the last couple nights. I don't know why I never saw such a famous movie before. Anyway, I guess it was famous becasue it was so controversial, and I can see what some people may not like, but I don't really understand why it is something that should be banned by the pope. (I don't know where it was banned, just that it was banned).

It is the first time I have ever heard any attempt to visualize what life must have been like back in the day, and what Jesus was like as a "man" because he was a man as well, but it seems that all anyone ever focused on in school and church is the God part.

I often wonder how the "temptation in the desert" could have been much of a temptation... I mean the devil tried to tempt him with power over the world? It is like someone trying to tempt me with a pot of tea, when I have 5 pots every night as it is. Not much of a temtation. The movie showed how Jesus as a man was succeptible to temptation. I think actually seeing that aspect is a good thing fro Christians... simply becasue if we only see him as God, the fact that he actaully was tempted looses all meaning.

I thinkhowever, that alot of people must have been offended at the fact that he was portrayed as kind of a naive, dim-wit confused chap who didn't really know what was going on most of the time. Also it seemed that the point of the movie was that he was just a regular guy who had dilusions of or was unsure of his being God. This is something that I don't buy... I guess becuase knowing everything and not knowing tht he was God just doesn't make any sense. But that is another story. And there is way to much about that movie to write about here.

I have used up my time for today. I would go to bed but I don't know that I can sleep with this pain...