Oft Abandoned Dreams

In grade-school and high-school I had dreams to become good at drawing. Those dreams were forgotten, until about two years ago, when a friend introduced me to her sketch-club, meeting every Friday night. I started going, and really got into it, spending much of my free time sketching. I was learning to paint, and loving it.

Somehow I forgot that dream again, and for the past year I have rarely picked up a pencil or brush.

A couple weeks ago I went to an art exhibition by the sketch-club. After going there to see a friends painting, I had the urge to start sketching and painting again. I went back to the club once, three weeks ago, but somehow I haven't been back since.

Maybe, if I try real hard though, and make an effort to start participating again, next year I'll have a painting in the show again... Or maybe I'll just forget that dream again like I have so many times before.

One would think that the fact that I keep abandoning that dream means it's not really a high-priority dream. So why do I hang onto it?