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The only benefit of getting up at 7:30 for an 8:30 meeting is that I get a nice view of Tokyo in the morning. If you look closely you should be able to see Fuji in some of these shots. It's hard though because of all that smog. An interesting fact, it is estimated that up to 87% of all the smog you see in this photo is from smokers exhaust. Of course I am the one who made that estimate, and I based in on nothing more than my feelings when walking behind a smoker on the street.
Tomoe calls me "trivializer" saying that I "trivialize" everything. I tend to disagree. I feel that I am simply lucky enough to not have anything really worth worrying about in my immediate life. I really have a hard time thinking of anything within reason in business or my life that will mean the end of the world and are unrecoverable from. Of course, my trivialist attitude does come out in some pretty inconvenient places, such as work. It always amazes me to see what a big deal people can make of something that is actually quite simple. Sure I understand the need to get it right, but in most cases getting it right does not require so many wasted man-hours in meetings and discussions where the main goal is not to get it right, but rather to look good.
I of course look bad because I "trivialize" things. My attitude is often "Do the best you can. Don't waste time trying to do better when you know it is physically or technically impossible in the given time frame, and if it doesn't turn out the way you hoped, it ain't the end of the world. Learn from it and move on." I have the hardest time keeping this attitude to myself... since it will undoubtedly not go over well with people who like to obsess rather than progress.
Does the need to have endless meetings stem from a desire to look good, or to keep as busy as possible without making more work for yourself? It's a mystery to me.
That being said, I often long for some semblance of bureaucracy in my own office where there is no systemization. This is nice in that it allows me to run amok and do what I want without being bogged down by crap, but when working with people who need he rules set down in black and white I often get overwhelmed because I try to take on too much myself rather than setting the rules which, if everything worked as planned would make things so smooth, but basically fall apart because I can't trust most people anyway and once again wind up taking on too much. This of course effects my performance on any one project, and I feel like crap about that... got to work on that.
Don't know why that came up. It is just something that was ticking me off today.
Probably part of the reason it is on my mind is that I started feeling a little bad today, thinking that I may have offended some people by writing what I wrote yesterday... though I see absolutly nothing wrong or earth-ending with it, I was writing it in connection with people I don't really know, and some people do take things and themselves way to seriously. Or is it that I just trivialize them and myself?
I have no reason to feel that anyone is upset, no death threats or anyhting, but I seem to rub serious people the wrong way sometimes. As a result, since I can not make myself take everyhting so seriously, I have learned over the years to just keep my mouth shut. (hence I am a cold loner) This whole making my thoughts public on my site concept throws a little monkey wrench into the silence strategy.
Tomorrow is nudie night again.
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