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I have to write a disclaimer post that I can link to every time I complain about work. Maybe it's because I, for the first time, told a client the link to my site, or maybe it's because every time I reread what I wrote I think "that doesn't sound like what I wanted to say!".
The disclaimer follows.
My job is good. I get to do cool things. I like a lot of the things I do.
The clients are good. They often complain if they don't get more for less. I realize this is business, and I understand why they want more for less.
The people I work with are good people. I like them fine on a personal level. They are doing as much as or more than they are paid for.
When I complain about work, it may sound like I am saying the company, or the clients, or the co-workers are bad. Often I blame these things. It's not really because of these things.
The more I think about it (and writing and complaining about it helps me to think about it) the more I believe that the main problem is simply that I am afraid of getting old and standing still. Even if I like it, and it is good, if it is not moving forward, it feels like crap. In a small company there is no ladder climbing. No matter how much I like some of the things I do, I have done them all too many times, and am terrified that the number of chances I have to try new things is growing smaller day by day. (and believe me, I make as many chances as I can and the clients can afford)
But wait! There are sometimes chances to do new things. The problem is that I don't have interest in some of the new things. I am faced with a choice of growing in a direction I don't care about, or not growing. It frustrates me and I lash out and blame everyone and everything...
Again, the company is good or I would have quit long ago. The co-workers are not the worst, and I have an inkling that wherever I go I would be a little dissatisfied with my co-workers (because their not me). Some of the work is great fun and has taught me a lot that I can utilize for purposes I am more interested in. This is good.
That's the disclaimers. I will edit this at will, and I will link to it every time I complain about work... because I'm not really complaining about work, I'm complaining about the fact that I am getting older but see no real change in my life.
Very good Kevin.
It's precisely because of these sort of issues that I don't write about home life or work problems on my blog.
Actually, I don't see it as an incredibly huge issue.
A while back I went through all the old posts and reread things to see if there was something I might have written in the heat of the moment want wanted to erase (I know it's still cached on google) but actually rereading I felt that I was not really saying anything that I shouldn't have, or would have to deny in the future. And of course it's not a new idea or shock that people often get frustrated about work issues. There was only one place I made a minor edit which was just to remove some information that made it quite obvious who a client was, but it was note even one of my many "whining and complaining" posts, it was a post where I was praising and thanking a client.
Sure there are places where it could be taken out of context if someone has not read any other posts, but I can't live my life in fear of opening my mouth because *anything* I say could be taken out of context. That's why I made this disclaimer post. Next time I complain, they can click to here and hopefully take it with a grain of salt. Or maybe I'll be fired... and maybe this is a sub-conscious attempt to get myself fired....
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